Those of you who have been following my rather sparse posts over the last few months heard that I was making some big changes…and giving up the apartment in Toronto to live full time in Niagara on the Lake.
I bet on the farm, literally.
And after 5 months of living here full time I can say that I lost the bet.
We moved here for a few reasons but the main ones being:
Now, these are all pretty solid reasons when you think of them on paper (or on screen in this case). But, there’s a big factor that we really didn’t think of realistically. It’s called everyday living. And we didn’t think about how our everyday life would be, if we lived in a totally new place, where we didn’t know anyone, we had no support, and we would have to drive to do anything.
And wow, that was an eye-opener! It’s like my life literally stopped.
I was alone in a big house all day, where I knew no-one, and nobody knew me. I had a baby that slept all day, and was pretty much home-bound.
Yes, of course, the house is gorgeous – If I could move this house to Toronto tomorrow, I would. And the land is beautiful – I look out my window sometimes and I’m still in awe of how gorgeous it is to have grass for miles, nice big trees, a huge pond, and a clear view of the Niagara Escarpment.
But that in no-way compensates for the isolation, slow pace, and total calm that this life offers.
When I moved here I had visions of gardening everyday, cooking beautiful, gourment meals, and having friends coming over every weekend to enjoy the local vineyards. None of that really happened. Having a baby is like being in a serious car crash. Your life stops, and physically you can’t do all the stuff you did before. I tried, but ended up really delaying my recovery…
I somewhat feel like a fool for moving all the way out here to realize it’s not for me. But, that’s life, right? And as long as I can “course-correct” and get myself back to a happy place, it doesn’t matter.
And, you know what? I can still garden, cook gourmet food, and have friends over for wine from my condo patio or backyard in Toronto!